Friday, December 30, 2011
Thursday, December 29, 2011
I hope everyone's holiday was amazing! I am seriously loving this winter break! Spending it with friends and family has been perfect!
Between the 22nd and now I have been to the mall 5 out of 7 days! Not to mention I have been working at shieldzone and then going shopping so I basically have lived at South Towne and Fashion Place all week! I found some pretty great stuff and just saying the sales before and after Christmas are my best friends! Got a way cute shirt, a new purse, and this schveet Nixon! Yeah it was half off and only $35. You're welcome!
Friday, December 23, 2011
Those are just a few things to describe the year, but really it was crazy. I don't even know how the beginning of the 2011 and now can even be in the same year. At the beginning I was dating Taylor (sort of), hating school (that didn't change), and confused on what my future would hold. Now, and towards the end of the year I still hated school, am single, and am more certain on what I want in my future, but there are still some large variables. In a lot of ways 2011 was great for me. I moved on from someone who was quite literally my entire world and realized that it's more important right now for me to be my world.
I struggled and struggled with whether I want to teach and now I think that I know I want to. Thank you to Mrs. Wright's 5th grade class that I'm going to student teach with in the Spring. I am still moving on from the pains of the past couple years and I don't know how long it's going to take me to trust again. I don't cry half as much as I used to, unless I'm being an emotional freak and decide to cry during previews and the entire movie, The Help. I think I became numb from everything and everyone that was lying, manipulating, and hurting me the last couple years. It's finally caught up to me and made me much more careful about the people I truly let in. I'm not actually sure if I have really let anyone in in a very long time. I've learned to love the little things. I don't know if I would say "appreciate" the little things though. I love a simple picture or quote. I love hearing my niece, Ellie, call me "Paigey". I love the conversations I have with Thomas till 3AM. I'm just not sure if I've fully come to appreciate the little things in my life that have always been there. I know more recently that I am truly lucky for the parents and family that I have, as much as I complain about them, they are great to me. I know that I am more blessed than the majority of the people in this entire world are. I just need to be more appreciative of these things on a daily basis, not just during a little reflection of my life. Speaking of, I have reflected this year. I have learned to think about exactly what I'm doing and what it is doing for me. I can thank the education program for that.
I think the most important thing I have come to realize this year among of this is that I am young. I'm only 21 years old. I am graduating in April (HOLLA!) and I still have my whole life ahead of me. Now, having said that I don't want to take this time for granted. I am trying to enjoy my days doing what I love. Which usually consists of hanging out with Thomas ALL THE TIME. Yes, please! I just want to remember this time of my life and I want to be happy that I spent it doing things that are fun. There is a lot of pressure around this time in life and there are a lot of expectations from different people, that frankly aren't even entitled to expect shit from me. These expectations are effing ridiculous too. That's why I am trying to embrace the fact that I am 21, single, about to graduate, with more options than ever in my near, near future.
I am really excited about 2012. Thomas has always said it will be a good year and he is usually pretty spot on about these things, it's actually a little freaky. But I think that 2012 will bring just what I have said: Opportunity, excitement, and hopefully a bright future. It's going to be a hard year, full of a lot of work and dedication, but it is also going to be a defining year in my life and I am excited about it. I am ready for it. Nervous, but ready. 2011 was good to me for the most part and I am ready for an even better 2012.
Wednesday, December 21, 2011
Tuesday, December 20, 2011
Okay, I'm done with the bragging of how awesome my life is I just wanted to remember how good today feels. I'm happy :) There's no particular reason, but I'm content and I love it.
Friday, December 16, 2011
- 1901 - Phoenix
- Moth's Wings - Passion Pit
- Oh Darling! (Feat. Cady Groves) - Plug in Stereo
- 40 Day Dream - Edward Sharpe & The Magnetic Zeroes
- Niggas in Paris - Jay-Z & Kanye West
- Nothing Left to Lose - Mat Kearney
- Stay Together for the Kids - Blink- 182
- Goods (All in My Head) - Mates of State
- Don't Let Me Fall - B.o.B
- A Dustland Fairytale - The Killers
- Positive Tension - Bloc Party
- On Your Porch - The Format
- Chasing Cars - Snow Patrol
- Nighthawks - Two Hours Traffic
- Falling or Flying - Grace Potter & The Nocturnals
- We Found Love - Rihanna
- Down - Jason Walker
- Jesus Christ - Brand New
- Armistice - Phoenix
Thursday, December 15, 2011
I can be quite the complainer at times and I absolutely hate it. Having said that and recognized it, I'm probably not going to stop all the complaining (at least I recognize that, too), but I do get a reality check from time to time. Basically the lesson of this week, well month, is that somebody out there has it a lot worse than you. We all know that there are places in this world and country that people are starving, dying, and living these terrible lives where they are grateful for the smallest things, yet I am here living in this perfect, warm house complaining about my education, when I should be celebrating the fact that I am GETTING an education. It's hard to gather a lot of perspective from those extreme situations where people are a lot worse of than you, but when someone of relatively the same life is having a harder time, that is what really gives me some perspective. I am just lucky to have what I have, which is a lot and I don't deserve it most of the time.
Also, since this is the big news on the streets lately... Everyone needs to leave Tim Tebow the hell alone. At least the guy is humble enough to know that he was given that talent by someone. Hard for people who don't believe in God to understand obviously, but I would take a guy with so much talent giving God all the credit than a guy with talent thinking that he is God because of it. At least he is grateful for what he has.
"Some people are always grumbling because roses have thorns; I am just thankful that thorns have roses." - Alphonse Karr
"If you haven't all the things you want, be grateful for the things you don't have that you wouldn't want." -Unknown
"It is impossible to feel grateful and depressed in the same moment." -Naomi Williams