thank you Lyndsee Brice!

Back in school they never taught us what we needed to know,
like how to deal with despair, or someone breaking your heart.
For twelve years I've held it all together but a night like this is begging to pull me apart.
I played it quiet, left you deep in conversation.
I felt uncool and hung out around the kitchen.
I remember I kept thinking that I know you never would,
and now I know I want to kill you like only a best friend could.

Everyone's caught on to everything you do
Everyone's caught on to.

As if this happening wasn't enough I got to go
and write a song just to remind myself how bad it sucked.
Ignore the sun, the cover's over my head.
I wrote a message on my pillow that says, "Jesse, stay asleep in bed."
So don't apologize. I hope you choke and die.
Search your cell for something with which to hang yourself.
They say you need to pray if you want to go to heaven
but they don't tell you what to say when your whole life has gone to hell.

Everyone's caught on to everything you do
Everyone's caught on to
And everyone's caught on to everything you do (And I can't let you, let me down again.)
Everyone's caught on to (And I can't let you, let me down again)

So, is that what you call a getaway?
Tell me what you got away with.
Cause I've seen more spine in jellyfish.
I've seen more guts in eleven-year-old kids.
Have another drink and drive yourself home.
I hope there's ice on all the roads.
And you can think of me when you forget your seatbelt,
and again when your head goes through the windshield.

And is that what you call tact?
You're as subtle as a brick in the small of my back.
So let's end this call, and end this conversation.
and is that what you call a getaway?
well tell me what you got away with.
cause you left the frays from the ties you severed
when you say best friends means friends forever

So, is that what you call a getaway?
Well tell me what you got away with.
Cause I've seen more spine in jellyfish.
I've seen more guts in eleven-year-old kids.
Have another drink and drive yourself home.
I hope there's ice on all the roads.
And you can think of me when you forget your seatbelt,
and again when your head goes through the windshield.

Everyone's caught on to everything you do (And I can't let you, let me down again)
Everyone's caught on to (And I can't let you, let me down again)
And everyone's caught on to everything you do (And I can't let you, let me down again)
Everyone's caught on to (And I can't let you, let me down again)

Seventy Times 7

By Brand New

"Holla! City of squalla!"

hilarious, but so nasty.

How is it possible that someone can look so hott, when they are so effed up?

all cleaned up!

get it gurrrl

biebs

REDLANDS

So this one time Lyndsee, Cole, and I drove to Redlands for the weekend and we met a zebra in Scipio Utah... We were gone for a total of 59 hours and we were in the car for 18 of those hours.. It was such a fun trip and I can't wait to go back in 33 days! Yes, there is a countdown!

driving to Huntington Beach with Mike and Ferni
I am moving here.

so much fun meeting everyone

Redlands Temple

sometimes i just have to...

i am so grateful for whatever gift i was given that makes it possible for me to laugh and just about anything. i love laughing. it gets annoying for people, i'm sure, but i would much rather be laughing and smiling at the smallest nothings, than have no sense of humor.

that sense of humor is what determined who my best friends are today. we can sit and laugh at movies and each other for hours. we can literally sit and quote some of our favorite movies and have full blown conversations through it all.

i used to cry a lot, but i haven't been as teary eyed at every little thing anymore, which i am very grateful for. don't get me wrong, i love a good cry every now and then, but i much prefer the chance to laugh at something awkward, ridiculous, hilarious, scary, or sad, than cry. i was literally shaking because of a situation i was in the other day, but instead of breaking down i just started laughing histerically because it was so ironic and uncomfortable.

i am also so grateful for my friends that will laugh at these situations with me. instead of trying to console me or say the right things they make jokes and laugh at my "drama" with me. it makes everything so much easier. just laugh at rude people, awkward situations, bad jokes, scary moments, and fun times. i hope i don't ever take this laughing "problem" i have for granted because it is one of my most defining qualities.

laugh...

just saying...

Joe Manganiello

i am

moving to california asap.

best road trip ever.

can't wait for more redlands.

i love lyndsee brice.

anna maria

This is the fight
You can win
My hands are tied
Giving in
I know you can't see
But trust me
Believe

Cause were on the beach
Side by side
There's sand in our toes
Tonight
The moonlight
The waves
Chasing our feet

Take me down

My heart beats faster when I'm with you
'Cause I know that you would want me to
I swear to hell I'll never leave
Cause I know one thing
Love is all we need

Let's live tonight
Like our last
We'll streak through the town
Living fast
'Cause naked, we came
So naked, we leave

And we saw the world
Dying down
So we lived it up
Stole the crown
And now that we are free
Let's get out
And breathe

Take me down

My heart beats faster when I'm with you
'Cause I know that you would want me to
I swear to hell I'll never leave
Cause I know one thing
Love is all we need

Are you ready
We'll do this together
We'll make this forever
I know you don't want me to go
I could see
You were waiting for me
You got love in your eyes
Now it's time
To lose all our control

Cause were on the beach
Side by side
There's sand in our toes
We're alive
Feel the weight of your kiss
Crashing down
On my lips

My heart beats faster when I'm with you
'Cause I know that you would want me to
I swear to hell I'll never leave
Cause I know one thing
Love is all we need

Love is all we need
Love is all we need

ADELE

There's a fire starting in my heart

Reaching a fever pitch, and it's bringing me out the dark

Finally I can see you crystal clear

Go ahead and sell me out and I'll lay your ship there

See how I'll leave with every piece of you

Don't underestimate the things that I will do

There's a fire starting in my heart

Reaching a fever pitch

And it's bringing me out the dark

The scars of your love remind me of us

They keep me thinking that we almost had it all

The scars of your love, they leave me breathless

I can't help feeling

We could have had it all

Rolling in the deep

(Tears are gonna fall, rolling in the deep)

You had my heart inside of your hand

(You're gonna wish you never had met me)

And you played it to the beat

(Tears are gonna fall, rolling in the deep)

Baby, I have no story to be told

But I've heard one of you

And I'm gonna make your head burn

Think of me in the depths of your despair

Making a home down there

As mine sure won't be shared

The scars of your love remind me of us

They keep me thinking that we almost had it all

The scars of your love, they leave me breathless

I can't help feeling

We could have had it all

Rolling in the deep

(Tears are gonna fall, rolling in the deep)

You had my heart inside of your hand

(You're gonna wish you never had met me)

And you played it to the beat

(Tears are gonna fall, rolling in the deep)

We could have had it all

Rolling in the deep

You had my heart inside of your hand

But you played it with a beating

Throw your soul through every open door

Count your blessings to find what you look for

Turn my sorrow into treasured gold

You pay me back in kind and reap just what you sow

(You're gonna wish you never had met me)

We could have had it all

(Tears are gonna fall, rolling in the deep)

We could have had it all

(You're gonna wish you never had met me)

It all, it all, it all

(Tears are gonna fall, rolling in the deep)

We could have had it all

(You're gonna wish you never had met me)

Rolling in the deep

(Tears are gonna fall, rolling in the deep)

You had my heart inside of your hand

(You're gonna wish you never had met me)

And you played it to the beat

(Tears are gonna fall, rolling in the deep)

You could have had it all

(You're gonna wish you never had met me)

Rolling in the deep

(Tears are gonna fall, rolling in the deep)

You had my heart inside of your hand

(You're gonna wish you never had met me)

But you played it

You played it

You played it

You played it to the beat.

bff

thank you netflix

i love this guy...

USA

good dad

I just saw the cutest little dad dancing to Pretty Girl Rock in the mall in front of his son, who was of course cracking up! It was cutest thing! This nerdy little dad dancing to Keri Hilson! Ha! I love seeing good parents like that in the world!

work work work

Okay! So finally it's summer and it's getting warm outside and of course I am stuck inside all day everyday working... It's actually a good thing! I am working at ShieldZone (ZAGG shield protectors for electronic devices!) again! It's pretty weird being back here. Anyway, between SZ and Frogurt I am working about 55 hours just this week. Yeah... three 12 hour days in a row! I literally have bags under my eyes... Because of course I'm not just gonna go home after working from 9-9! I'm gonna go party with my friends! Duh! Yeah I'm really draggin, but I cannot miss out on anything this summer! I am really happy that I have the two jobs because I need money!!! Hopefully I can actually enjoy some of summer though!

Speaking of summer... I AM GOING TO REDLANDS WITH LYNDSEE IN ONE WEEK!!!! Next Friday, we are driving down to her hometown for her friend Em's farewell! It's going to be one quick trip! Down Friday back Sunday, but I am SO FREAKING EXCITED!!! Her friend Cole is coming with us too, so it's going to be a blast! I am way excited to get away and actually be in CA, even if it is just for a couple days. Blink and JB the whole drive! CAN'T WAIT!!

laGOON!

Shaun, Nate, Me, and Tom

Tom, Shaun, Josue, and Nate

Quick shout out to my girl LB! The only reason we got to go to Lagoon was because she was dancing there! It was so fun! Btw she is one hell of a dancer! That girl can shake it! I'm totally jealous! I just love the Burrows family!

bees game!

i love summer...

summer

round two...

yes, this has already been on my blog, not too long ago actually, but it's just so good i had to post it again. plus i've listened to it at least 9 times in the last hour... NBD!

music

has always been a big thing in my life. i'm not musically talented, actually i'm more challenged, but i love listening to music. it has saved my life many, many times.. especially in the last 3 years of my life. it has kept me up when i've been way too far down. listening to a life changing song is exactly that... life changing. life altering. mind blowing. makes my head spin. it makes me spin. i love it. there are some songs that i have gotten from shows like Grey's Anatomy and One Tree Hill that are amazing. those shows are so great and make my world so much easier just because of the incredible music thats on it...

the other thing that makes music in my life so amazing is listening to it with my friends. just driving and jamming out to whatever music fits our lives right at that moment. even if the lyrics are stupid and really have nothing to do with us. we can still relate somehow to the beat. this is so incredibly lame and cheesy, but it music connects people. young people like me. we need music. any kind of music. whatever music you like. i don't care if it's britney spears, the killers, miley cyrus, cyndi lauper, the avett brothers, joe purdy, snow patrol, we the kings, justin bieber, taylor swift, alabama, journey, michael jackson. or all of it. if it affects you. changes you. makes you who you are. then you know what i'm talking about. have you ever been asked "Would you rather be deaf or blind?" yeah, well i'd rather be neither, but if i had to choose, i would say blind. because i can't imagine not having music in my life. not listening to music would change my world for the worse. i am just grateful that there are people in the world that are musically talented because i don't know where i would be if it weren't for some of the songs and artists that have saved my life.

"You were wrong yesterday when you said the kids in the clubs were just there for decadence. I think it's more like romance and hope and inspiration and that feeling that you get when other human beings pick up basic instruments and make sense of your world. And the day that I think it's just about making money is gonna be the day that I've betrayed everything I believe in about music and life and myself." -- Peyton Sawyer (OTH)

THURRRSDAAYYY!

NATE COMES HOME ON THURSDAY!!!!

FOR THE WHOLE SUMMER!!!!!!!!!!

i don't think i've ever been happier...

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insane!!!

These kids are all under 13 years old and from Jersey! Tell me you don't love Jersey Shore now!!

SOOOOO AWESOME!