honest to blog?

One of my favorite movies...

And totally worth up to 5 years in prison and a $250,000 fine!

disappointed

i love grey's anatomy. i mean i really really love it. that show, as incredibly shallow as it sounds, changed my life. grey's helped me through a lot in

high school and basically got me through taylor's mission.

now, when i say "i love grey's anatomy" i mean i love the first 3 seasons and some episodes of the last 3 mixed in here and there... that's why i am disappointed. it's just not that good anymore and it hasn't been for a while. i loved when the show was about hopeless romantics, life altering situations, life changing loves, and frienships that keep people alive. i think it's changed and isn't amazing anymore because some characters left

(all my favorites) and relationships changed, which obviously changed the dynamics of the show. now there seems to be someone new on every other week.

i made a decision that i wasn't going to keep watching the show after last season, but i'm nervous that its all of a sudden going to be amazing and i'm going to miss out on something that was so good to me before, but i honestly don't want to waste anymore time watching

that show and getting frustrated and upset that something so perfect is so, not.

i want izzy and meredith to laugh and talk about stupid guys that they are completely in love with. i want alex to be brutally honest. i want cristina to be a powerhouse heart surgeon. i want george and izzy to get drunk and be the best friends they are. i want mcdreamy torn between two women because of his north pointing moral compass when he knows who he is truly in love with. i want dirty, sexy callie to

make a man want her when he thought she was the last thing for him. i want mark flirting with every woman on the planet. i want the chief to be a good man and look out for meredith as a father. i want bailey to be happy at work being a bamf boss and and simultaneously the most caring docter on the show. i want moments that make me cry, no sob, even after seeing them 25 times. but most of all, i want the music of grey's anatomy. that show was so amazing because of the songs and the precise moments that those songs were played. the precise moments that those lyrics were said. i want to find new heart stopping songs from the scenes that changed everything for me. i want grey's.

to my friends...

...thank you for being just that. xo

room

like i mentioned before i have been painting and "remodeling" my room. i put remodeling in quotes because i'm really not changing that much, but just enough to make it different... BUT! finally the walls are painted and my big furniture is back in place... :)

i have 3 walls that are a very light gray-almost-white color and a wall that is yellow. it's really cute guys. my parents are amazing and did a fantastic job! i've also painted my head board black and i'm trying to get my mom to let me paint my dresser, night stand, and book shelf black... we'll see!

the only problem with the room i had before (beside the fact that it was the same for 10 years) is that i had my purses hanging on my wall on these really cute hooks, but in case you didn't know i have a purse obsession and yes, that is an understatement. so i am looking for a new storage system for my purses, but i either don't have enough space in my room for a shelf or drawers that will hold them or the drawers/shelves that do fit in my room isn't big enough to hold them all... I am interested in several things at IKEA. I basically just wanna live in that store. and my future home with be decked out in stuff from that amazing warehouse. but for now i need help finding something or a storage idea? hit me up if you have anything!

pictures of the finished product will be here eventually...

simple

boyfriend

i need

milk

gimme

took me wayy too long to get this album

breathtaking

{better than fine}

so...

who wants to drop $2,100,000 on this for me?

gimme

and i'm dreaming

Wish You Were
Kate Voegele

Gone away are the golden days
Just a page in my diary
So here I am, a utopian citizen
Still convinced there's no such thing as idealism

Memories they're following me like a shadow now
And I'm dreaming
And I've already suffered the fever of disbelief

[Chorus]
I've seen your act
And I know all the facts
I'm still in love with who I wish you were
It ain't hard to see
Who you are underneath
I'm still in love with who I wish you were
And I wish you were here

I was true as the sky is blue
I couldn't soon say the same for you
So now I find denial in my eyes
I'm mesmerized by the picture that's in my mind

Tell me when I'll finally see your shallow heart
For what it is
Cause I don't want to keep on believing in illusions

[Chorus]

Sometimes I can't explain
And I'm so sorry that I can't
I'll try to concentrate
On your true identity

[Chorus]

summer jams

music is amazing and there is nothing better than blasting one of these songs in the middle of a hot, hot summer day... that's my peace.

Summertime by Kenny Chesney

the entire Be As You Are album by Kenny Chesney

California Gurls by Katy Perry

Red Ragtop by Tim McGraw

Feeling This by Blink-182

Positive Tension by Bloc Party

Water by Brad Paisley

Somewhere in Brooklyn by Bruno Mars

What's My Name (Feat. Drake) by Rihanna

I Want Something That I Want by Grace Potter and Bethany Joy Galeotti

Tonight, Tonight by Hot Chelle Rae

Summer Love by We The Kings

Get Up by Mayday Parade

Dark Blue by Jack's Mannequin

One Time (acoustic) by Justin Bieber

Kiss and Tell by Justin Bieber

If We Ever Meet Again (Feat. Katy Perry) by Timbaland

Tik Tok by Ke$ha

Put You in a Song by Keith Urban

Young by Kenny Chesney

JoyRide by The Killers

Sam's Town by The Killers

The Edge of Glory by Lady Gaga

Heart Like Mine by Miranda Lambert

Your Surrender by Neon Trees

Moments 4 Life by Nikki Minaj and Drake

Drivin' Me Crazy by Sammy Adams

Le Disko by Shiny Toy Guns

Chasing Cars by Snow Patrol

Beatbox by The Sounds

Tony The Beat by The Sounds

Lady Lady by Seve vs. Evan

Hip to My Heart by The Band Perry

April Showers by Sugarland

Little Miss by Sugarland

Sparks Fly by Taylor Swift

Tim Mcgraw by Taylor Swift

Something Like That by Tim McGraw

Telluride by Tim McGraw

We'll Be Alright by Travie McCoy

Summer Nights by Lil Rob

Anna Maria by We The Kings

In N Out (Animal Style) by We The Kings

Good Life by OneRepublic

There are probably a million more I could add to this list, but this is what I've thought of today.. I'm sure more are to come...

i don't care what you say...

... jb looks HOT! he's all grown up! so funny!

my new favorite thing...

{better than fine}

withdrawals

mayydayy

She fell to the bottom of her life

This wasn't meant for two
She struggles to find herself in time
But she can barely move

Just try and get up
You gotta slowly brush off
I know that words aren't enough
But you're better than this

Save your heart
For someone that's worth dying for
Don't give it away
Torn apart
Never getting what you've been crying for
It's always the same


She turns the pages everyday
Just to change the mood
But every chapter reads the same
So hard to make it through

Just try and get up
You gotta slowly brush off
I know that words aren't enough
But you're better than this

Save your heart
For someone that's worth dying for
Don't give it away
Torn apart
Never getting what you've been crying for
It's always the same

And you give (and you give)
And they take (and they take)
And it's love that you want
But not love that you make

Save your heart
For someone that's worth dying for
Don't give it away

Save your heart
For someone who leaves you breathless
And I know that you're scared
Seems like someone said you had it in you
All along you said you knew this was wrong
But still worth dying for

Save your heart
For someone who leaves you breathless
And I know that you're scared
Seems like someone said you had it in you (are you scared?)
All along you said you knew this was wrong
But still worth dying for

And you give (and you give)
And they take (and they take)
And it's love that you want
But not love that you make

Save your heart
For someone that's worth dying for
Don't give it away
Don't give it away


Save Your Heart

Mayday Parade

can i just be her?

great song, weird video

(I miss you miss you)
Hello there the angel from my nightmare
The shadow in backround of the morgue
The unsespecting victim of darkness in the valley
We can live like Jack and Sally if we want
Where you can always find me
And we'll have Halloween on Christmas
And in the night we'll wish this never ends
We'll wish this never end

Where are you and I'm so sorry
I cannot sleep I cannot dream tonight
I need somebody and always
This sick strange darkness comes creeping on so haunting everytime
And as I stared I counted the webs from all the spiders
catching things and eating their insides
Like indecision to call you
And hear your voice of treason
Will you come home and stop this pain tonight
stop this pain tonight

Don't waste your time on me your already the voice inside my head(6x)

I miss you miss you(6x)

best summer of my life

Summer 2011 is shaping up to be the best summer of my 21 years. I have already had SO much fun and I still have a good 2 months to enjoy! :) I owe most of my fun to Thomas, LB, Nate, Haley, Shaun, and Lyndsee! Actually, I owe all of it to them! I've already been to California and camping! I've hung out with my bff like everyday-BEST THING EVER! I've spent a lot of time actually earning money and working (as much as I hate it, it's been a blessing). I'm all caught up on True Blood and have played at least 7 games of Phase 1o in the last week! I've listened/jammed out to music none stop in Cooper! (by far the thing that makes me the happiest!)

Aaaaand I still have so many exciting things to come! I have 6 (potentially 7) concerts from July to September! I am planning another camping trip and possibly a trip down to Vegas! I have MANY more hours to work! I am remodeling my room and planning on hitting the pool everyday I don't work (so like 5)... I have a great friend getting married and her bachelorette party to attend! A trip to Logan to see my main girl, Haley! And of course more and more music to listen to!

The last two months have seriously helped me get through some of the hardest times of my life. Whether I'm doing it the right way is probably debatable, but all I know is I finally feel happy again and I can't ask for anything more. I seriously am so blessed to have the most amazing friends and life in the world! Oh and not to mention the cutest nieces and nephew that make everything in life worth it!

summer 2011, i love you more.

hey its okay...

...to own exactly one bathing suit that's acceptable for photos.
...to silently judge your office's summer interns for wearing flip-flops.
...not to throw the flowers away until they're near disintegration.
...to be age-inappropriately attracted to Alec Baldwin. (Baldwin: a Do at any age.)
...to feel lame in a fedora or any of those other cool-girl hats.
...to eat ice cream while watching reality shows about weight loss. What? They can't see you through the screen.
...if you still can't forgive Tiger Woods.
...to buy the entire outfit displayed on the mannequin. Isn't that why it's there?

Thank you Glamour, July 2011

fine i'm obsessed.

i love joe manganiello... an article on the ultimate man!

girl crush

if i could look like anyone, it would be Sophia Bush...

yuuuuuba

okay these are a little out of order, but nonetheless it was probably one of the best nights of my life... i love these guys!!

you are totally jealous of my headlamp!

we burned some stuff... :)

sexy!!!

about 5 hours of horse shoes!

the drive...

GOING TO YUBA!

i can't believe i'm saying this...

but Joe Manganiello might, just might, be hotter than Ryan Reynolds...

C'mon, can you blame me?

unreal

i'm in love

roads: crazy and amazing

Highway 1, California

Stelvio Pass, Italy

North Yunguas Road, Bolivia

Trollstigen, Norway

Taroko Gorge, Taiwan

i love true blood...

august 10th

my friends are better

do i stay up till 2 am every night and get up at 8 and work 10 hour shifts and do it all over again just to hang out with nate and tom? yes, yes i do. ya know why? cause i couldn't imagine having any more fun than i do with them. its impossible. my friends are amazing. i love being able to watch movies, tv shows, and snl skits every night. i love that i can sit and bs with them all night long and it is fun. this is my life and its perfect. minus the 10 hour shifts. we're going camping on friday and all i can say is i can't wait to stay up all night talking, laughing, playing games, and shootin the shit. i love summer. oh and these hooligans.

sorry your friends aren't this awesome.

claaaaaassic peg

Saturday Night Live - Target - Video - NBC.com

thank you Thomas Burrows!

I freaking love this show! It's full of nasty sex and gore, but it's the best! The characters are so awesome and the story line is just freaky enough to give me the chills, but still allow me to sleep at night!
I just started the third season and it is SOOOOOOOO good! Seriously, if you can handle super-natural story lines, blood, sex, and the f-word you need to pick up this addiction ASAP!

gimme...

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