disappointed

i love grey's anatomy. i mean i really really love it. that show, as incredibly shallow as it sounds, changed my life. grey's helped me through a lot in

high school and basically got me through taylor's mission.

now, when i say "i love grey's anatomy" i mean i love the first 3 seasons and some episodes of the last 3 mixed in here and there... that's why i am disappointed. it's just not that good anymore and it hasn't been for a while. i loved when the show was about hopeless romantics, life altering situations, life changing loves, and frienships that keep people alive. i think it's changed and isn't amazing anymore because some characters left

(all my favorites) and relationships changed, which obviously changed the dynamics of the show. now there seems to be someone new on every other week.

i made a decision that i wasn't going to keep watching the show after last season, but i'm nervous that its all of a sudden going to be amazing and i'm going to miss out on something that was so good to me before, but i honestly don't want to waste anymore time watching

that show and getting frustrated and upset that something so perfect is so, not.

i want izzy and meredith to laugh and talk about stupid guys that they are completely in love with. i want alex to be brutally honest. i want cristina to be a powerhouse heart surgeon. i want george and izzy to get drunk and be the best friends they are. i want mcdreamy torn between two women because of his north pointing moral compass when he knows who he is truly in love with. i want dirty, sexy callie to

make a man want her when he thought she was the last thing for him. i want mark flirting with every woman on the planet. i want the chief to be a good man and look out for meredith as a father. i want bailey to be happy at work being a bamf boss and and simultaneously the most caring docter on the show. i want moments that make me cry, no sob, even after seeing them 25 times. but most of all, i want the music of grey's anatomy. that show was so amazing because of the songs and the precise moments that those songs were played. the precise moments that those lyrics were said. i want to find new heart stopping songs from the scenes that changed everything for me. i want grey's.