Worth It All

Tomorrow is my last day of student teaching and I am really upset about it. Yesterday I had to say bye to a student who went out of town for spring break and I just lost it. Today I got a thank you note from a student who isn't going to be here tomorrow. This is what makes the stress, exhaustion, work, lack of time, and teaching all worth it...

"Dear, Ms. Mantle
       you are literally the best definetally the coolest and for sure the best at teaching student teacher I have ever had. Most of my other student teachers I had didn't really care for the kids they thought if they just tought the lesson and got it over with that they could be a teacher, but you reall care for all of the kids and are the total opposite of my other student teachers. I am going to miss you so much and I am going to try to go to u-swirl every saturday I can say hi to you. Thank you so much for being my student teacher and putting a lot of time into our class."

I've never been so proud of any accomplishment in my entire life. I love teaching. I love working with children. More than anything I love being that difference to them.

These Are The Days

It's written on our palms and It's written on our hearts
It's written in our songs and
It's written in the stars
Sometimes all we can do
Is stand up tall
When they're standing in line
Just to watch us fall

Chorus:
Whoa
We can't forget, these are the days
Whoa, don't be afraid
We can't forget, these are the days

Well, we got each other and that's all we need
From here on out it's just you and me
Two hometown hearts up against the world
That don't stand a chance against this boy and girl
We faced 'em down, fought bigger fights
And I know babe we're gonna be alright

repeat chorus

Well, it feels like we're living from pay check to check
And we wake up wondering what might happen next
Yeah, someitmes it feels like we won't make it through
But the hard times pass
Like the good ones do
Baby wrap your fingers and
Hold on tight
I'll be right here beside you tonight
Baby climb up here
Watch the city glow
Let's make a wish on the fireworks below
We're making moments that we won't forget
And feeling ones that haven't happened yet

repeat chorus

Whoa Don't be afraid
We can't forget these are the days

Sugarland

one of those days

Have you ever had a day when you basically question everything you've planned, hoped, wanted, and waited for? I'm having one of those nights. It's weird. Sometimes I have these amazing, incredibly fun days and then night comes and I am in full blown panic attacks! What the hell?! This has happened to me before, but right now I am just ill equipped with the stress and now the doubt... Quick fixes - seeing as I can't decide my life, see the future, or make people do what I want - are music, my writers notebook, blogging (of course), and piccsy. These are somethings I've found midst  my freak out...


Get to You by Paradise Fears
We had so much time,
Too much love to ever think of running out 
Summer air was intoxicating 
Filled my lungs but I can't stop breathing
I had to take you home that night
Divide the space between our minds 
And find a cure for a heart that's failing 
I'm losing sleep but I can't stop dreming (dreaming...)

I miss the time when I used to know just 
Just how it feels to be in over my head
When I would do anything for your love 
When we could be anything we wanted 
What I'd give to touch your skin 
And beg your heart to feel the way it felt back then
So let me in

Now I'm caving in, 
Wearing thin, 
Sick of always fading out 
Got my hands in my pockets, baby 
I try to hide it but inside I'm shaking 
When you're gone my heart is too, 
Masquerading memories of you 
Can't pretend that your words don't phase me 
Can't pretend that you don't amaze, me

I miss the time when I used to know just 
Just how it feels to be in over my head
When I would do anything for your love 
When we could be anything we wanted 
What I'd give to touch your skin 
And beg your heart to feel the way it felt back then
So let me in

And I'll stay perpetually in this state 
When your voice is out of reach 
And you've got me fighting the seas,
But there's just too much ocean between 

I miss the time when I used to know just 
Just how it feels to be in over my head
When I would do anything for your love 
When we could be anything we wanted 
What I'd give to touch your skin 
And beg your heart to feel the way it felt back then
So let me, so let me, so let me in 
I can't get to you 
(So let me in) 
I can't get to you
(So let me in)
I can't get to you

favorite find 

If only it felt this positive.

For Thomas of course :)

What a joke... How does that face not cheer you up?

Here's to little things saving lives, hating change, and crying, A lot.

yes, this is happening!!!

I'm going to Fiji. I'M GOING TO FIJI! Booking my flight TODAY! (Which can I tell you SCARES THE CRAP OUTTA ME!) Tell me, please, just tell me you are thinking this is as awesome as I think it is! I'm pretty excited for the following reasons...

I will be living on the beach. Literally.  I will have no phone, Facebook, Twitter, Tumblr, Blogger, etc for 4 weeks. (Okay, so I'm not that excited about no blogs, but no phone? YES, PLEASE!) I will gain more teaching experience. I will be working with under privileged children.

I will be living on the beach FOR 4 WEEKS! I will be living on the beach for 4 weeks...

I WILL BE LIVING ON THE BEACH FOR 4 WEEKS!

Some downsides: (Like these even matter...)

I won't be able to talk to or see Henry, Addy, Ellie, or Charly. I won't be able to call and tell Thomas, Chelsea, Nate, or Haley everything, every single day, all day long like I will want to. I won't see Berkley for 4 weeks. There is no electricity... Actually, that's pretty awesome. I will have to hand wash my clothes, yeah okay that is going to be quite the adventure in itself.

The one thing that out weighs any of these "down sides"...

Appreciation.

I think that I'm a pretty grateful person, but it is always easy to take things I have everyday whenever I want for granted, so I am very excited to gain a greater appreciation of it all. 

You're so jealous, I know.