one of those days

Have you ever had a day when you basically question everything you've planned, hoped, wanted, and waited for? I'm having one of those nights. It's weird. Sometimes I have these amazing, incredibly fun days and then night comes and I am in full blown panic attacks! What the hell?! This has happened to me before, but right now I am just ill equipped with the stress and now the doubt... Quick fixes - seeing as I can't decide my life, see the future, or make people do what I want - are music, my writers notebook, blogging (of course), and piccsy. These are somethings I've found midst  my freak out...


Get to You by Paradise Fears
We had so much time,
Too much love to ever think of running out 
Summer air was intoxicating 
Filled my lungs but I can't stop breathing
I had to take you home that night
Divide the space between our minds 
And find a cure for a heart that's failing 
I'm losing sleep but I can't stop dreming (dreaming...)

I miss the time when I used to know just 
Just how it feels to be in over my head
When I would do anything for your love 
When we could be anything we wanted 
What I'd give to touch your skin 
And beg your heart to feel the way it felt back then
So let me in

Now I'm caving in, 
Wearing thin, 
Sick of always fading out 
Got my hands in my pockets, baby 
I try to hide it but inside I'm shaking 
When you're gone my heart is too, 
Masquerading memories of you 
Can't pretend that your words don't phase me 
Can't pretend that you don't amaze, me

I miss the time when I used to know just 
Just how it feels to be in over my head
When I would do anything for your love 
When we could be anything we wanted 
What I'd give to touch your skin 
And beg your heart to feel the way it felt back then
So let me in

And I'll stay perpetually in this state 
When your voice is out of reach 
And you've got me fighting the seas,
But there's just too much ocean between 

I miss the time when I used to know just 
Just how it feels to be in over my head
When I would do anything for your love 
When we could be anything we wanted 
What I'd give to touch your skin 
And beg your heart to feel the way it felt back then
So let me, so let me, so let me in 
I can't get to you 
(So let me in) 
I can't get to you
(So let me in)
I can't get to you

favorite find 

If only it felt this positive.

For Thomas of course :)

What a joke... How does that face not cheer you up?

Here's to little things saving lives, hating change, and crying, A lot.